bones to dust

i’m imaging returning to relapse and regaining the dark mysterious edge i had back and i feel beautiful

i can’t wait for halloween if i cut down this month i can be a bangin’ ghostly lookin audrey horne and binge on candy

and i also want to be not disgustingly gross looking for my girlfriend?? and i want to kiss her but people you know just y

about me

Current Weight: 89 lbs

Highest Weight: 100 lbs

Goal Weight: under 90 preferably 85

Favorite Exercise: yoga

What Makes You Slip Up?: salt & sweets & italian grandmothers

What Makes You Strong?: hunger pangs

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? usually 500 sometimes more-ish

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?: problems

Are You In A Relationship?: not really

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?: always been the thin one but hey there’s always room for improvement

Are You Depressed?: yeah officially diagnosed and all that

Ever Been To A Psychologist?: yes i lahv her

Are You On Any Medication?: prozac & synthroid

I AM -

[x] anorexic

[x] ednos (technically)

[] bulimic

[] living off diet pills

[x] hungry

[x] thirsty

[x] drinking something

[] eating something

[x] under 100lbs

[x] starving myself

[] participating in a fast

[] vegan

[] vegetarian

[] losing weight healthily

PEOPLE -

[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic

[] call me fat

[x] say I’m skinny

[x] say I’m ugly

[x] say I’m pretty

[x] spread rumors about me

[x] force me to eat

[x] say I eat too much

[x] wish I’d eat more

[x] don’t know I’m anorexic or bulimic

[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH -

[] I was thin

[X] I had a better body

[X] I didn’t have to eat

[x] I could control myself

[] I was under 100lb (THE GLORY)

[x] I could avoid food

[] I could hide what I am

[] I wasn’t fat

[X] I was prettier

[sometimes] I could stop being ana/mia

[] I had a boy/girlfriend

[x] I could disappear

I LOVE -

[]feeling hungry

[x] seeing a difference

[x] shaking

[x] being weak

[X] losing weight

[] being anorexic/bulimic

[X] green tea

[] diet pills

[X] being able to turn down food

[X] feeling good about myself

I HATE -

[x] when people stare

[x] being asked questions

[x] having to eat

[] being single

[x] wearing short skirts

[X] feeling fat

[X] looking ugly

[X] feeling this way

[] fat people

I NEED -

[X] more support

[x] people to stay out of my business

[] more friends

[] someone to know how I feel

[X] less food

[X] more water

[X] a gym membership

[] to lose 50 lbs

[] to lose 30 lbs

[] to lose 20 lbs

[] to lose 10 lbs

pro-thin:

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pro-thin:

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