i’m imaging returning to relapse and regaining the dark mysterious edge i had back and i feel beautiful
i can’t wait for halloween if i cut down this month i can be a bangin’ ghostly lookin audrey horne and binge on candy
and i also want to be not disgustingly gross looking for my girlfriend?? and i want to kiss her but people you know just y
about me
Current Weight: 89 lbs
Highest Weight: 100 lbs
Goal Weight: under 90 preferably 85
Favorite Exercise: yoga
What Makes You Slip Up?: salt & sweets & italian grandmothers
What Makes You Strong?: hunger pangs
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? usually 500 sometimes more-ish
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?: problems
Are You In A Relationship?: not really
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?: always been the thin one but hey there’s always room for improvement
Are You Depressed?: yeah officially diagnosed and all that
Ever Been To A Psychologist?: yes i lahv her
Are You On Any Medication?: prozac & synthroid
I AM -
[x] anorexic
[x] ednos (technically)
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] eating something
[x] under 100lbs
[x] starving myself
[] participating in a fast
[] vegan
[] vegetarian
[] losing weight healthily
PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic or bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me
I WISH -
[] I was thin
[X] I had a better body
[X] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[] I was under 100lb (THE GLORY)
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[] I wasn’t fat
[X] I was prettier
[sometimes] I could stop being ana/mia
[] I had a boy/girlfriend
[x] I could disappear
I LOVE -
[]feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[x] shaking
[x] being weak
[X] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[X] green tea
[] diet pills
[X] being able to turn down food
[X] feeling good about myself
I HATE -
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[X] feeling fat
[X] looking ugly
[X] feeling this way
[] fat people
I NEED -
[X] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[] more friends
[] someone to know how I feel
[X] less food
[X] more water
[X] a gym membership
[] to lose 50 lbs
[] to lose 30 lbs
[] to lose 20 lbs
[] to lose 10 lbs
